My hope

Who is Kim?

I am me...

Sounds simple enough doesn't it?

I am 27 years old. Almost 28.
I am from Springfield, Missouri.

First and foremost, I am a mother. From the tender age of 16.
I am a wife.
I am a lover.
I am a daughter. A Niece, granddaughter, aunt, friend, enemy (not on purpose, but hey, it happens)
I am a student. A nursing student to be specific.
But who cares about specifics?

I am compassionate.
I can be sensitive.
I can be insensitive.
I am passionate.
I am kind.
I am stern.
I am gentle.
I am firm.
I have no tolerance for bullshit.
I give too many second chances.
I love with all my heart.
I dislike with all my heart.

I am hurt easy.
I am passionate about what I love.

I don't hate.
Ok I do. But very few people. Under exceptional circumstances.
I don't care what people think.
I don't trust easily.
I don't let people too close.

Sometimes I over analyze things.
I jump to conclusions.
I sometimes judge people.
I don't like to be judged.

I love being pregnant.
I love giving birth.
I pretty much love anything and everything that has to do with bringing tiny humans earth side.
Yup, I'm crazy. It's ok.
I love to play with my children.
I enjoy just watching them be in their own little worlds of learning and innocence.
My heart swells when they sit in my lap or lay on me.
I enjoy studying...yes I said it. Don't judge me.
I spend lots of time on campus. Yes, I enjoy it.
I like the color pink. Again, don't judge me.
And purple. Sometimes even light blue.
But lately I wear black.
I love Nike running tennis shoes.
I love pretty pumps.
I like to cook and love to bake.
I like to drink but only sometimes.
I don't like to get drunk. I know my limits. I stick to them. Mostly. Usually.
I LOVE to dance. Line dance. Freestyle just isn't my thing. Unless I'm drunk.
I don't like to get drunk.
I love sleep.
I stay up late.
I feel attractive.
I don't feel pretty.

I am trying to learn the more natural side of life.
I am trying to embrace how humans were meant to live.
I believe in myself.
I believe in my children.
I believe in the stars and the moon.
I believe in love. Real. Love.
I love watching meteor showers, though I missed the last one, which I'm kind of upset about.
I like to save money but I have a tendency to spend too much...usually on my children.
I love to blog, but I fall behind a lot.
I love pictures; apparently just to take them, they rarely leave my computer.

I need positive people.
I need to be understood.
I need a balance.
I need to be balanced.
I need someone that balances me.
I need change sometimes.
I need stability all the time.

I know what you are thinking: "A lot of contradictions." Yup, that's me.
I understand that life is not black and white.
There is a lot of grey. A LOT.
I'm ok with that.

That's who I am. That's ok. This is me.

This is Kim.
I wouldn't want to be anyone else.

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